Yes. I think she would be lonelier. The only thing she’d have important in her life would be the Cause and Narcissa. Bellatrix had a partner in Rodolphus.
Voldemort was never her equal and her love was unrequited. With Rodolphus, she might not have loved him in the way he deserved, but she respected his skills in duelling. And I don’t think Bellatrix Lestrange would’ve fought alongside someone she didn’t consider her equal.
She broke my family. It was suppose to be the two of us changing things, making it better for Cissy and other girls.And after what I did to the woman I once called sister my sixth year, I ran. I was gone for a year. I would’ve been gone longer, but I had hurt my parents and Cissy enough.I returned and finished my seventh year.
Rodolphus proposed on Christmas Eve.
It was never about marriage itself. Loyalty and promises are things I can understand. I didn’t want to be owned or for that to be the only measure of my worth—who I married, what parties I planned, being on someone’s arm.
And I knew with him, he wouldn’t ask me to only be those things.
I was wary of him, but I soon realized he wasn’t like the other boys. It was friendship first.
And for me, that was rare enough.
We were all children and it was before Hogwarts. My sisters and I played outside on the grounds, hidden from the adults, away from everything. It wasn’t like that later on. With expectations come restrictions. I was the oldest and so more was expected of me, but at a certain point I couldn’t bear it.And I consider the moment I decided I wanted more for myself the end of my childhood.
I do not own a car.
Marauder!Bellatrix: Officially? I’m not certain. I barely spend any time there unless Cissy is in.
He accepts me. And even though I don’t see how, he loves me.And he’s not afraid.
Marauder!Bellatrix: Yes, they do. Why wouldn’t I?
The room of what?
ooc: I think if she had known about it. She would’ve told the Carrows. And Dumbledore’s Army would’ve been toast.